Have you ever tried living in a fantasy that you wished to be real? Have you put yourself in a position that you would dedicate your time and effort for something or someone just to make yourself sane and happy?
Happiness knows no bounds: it is a testimony of human existence. There are a lot of things that makes a person happy: money, career, objects, friends, loved ones. We all think that we can have these things forever. We wish it was so. The truth is, if there is happiness, there will always be sadness behind it.
A while ago, I was slapped back to the reality of things. I thought that the future will turn out great. Turns out, it didn't. It was something that I had to inadvertently accept because it seemed like I had no other choice.
It was wishful thinking, though. It was fun while it lasted. Thoughts rushed into my mind as to whether I should deny it or accept it. As of now, it is a tough decision to take. Denying the fact of having differences and just pretending it wasn't there was like unconsciously stabbing yourself multiple times without feeling it, and when the pain starts to seep in, it would be totally unbearable. Accepting the fact of having differences would open a lot of doors for opportunities, but it would be for a hefty price.
I never realized that what I thought was getting better was snapped off just like that. I was like woken up from a dream that lasted for months. It was like how a happily ever after turned out to be just a literal dream: a moment where you would inevitably wake up from after a few hours of enjoyment. It was like rising up with a bad headache, a brain fog that was just too painful to bear.
In short, it just had to suck.
I cannot deny the fact that I am disappointed about what had transpired. I am still hopeful for things to become much better. I do not wish to rush into things that I know might end up in despair. It was a matter of accepting something that has been laid on the table.
It's just knowing your limits and setting it, and learning how to control yourself and contain what needs to be contained.
It's just accepting something for what it is.
Acceptance is the key to freedom. It opens a lot of opportunities to take. It's like carpe diem everyday. It may be hard, but it takes adjustment to accept facts.
If there is no freedom, then there will never be happiness.
