The bad thing about being too kind

Honesty is the best policy.

That is a famous saying that connotes that honesty is above anything else. In honesty, one is always truthful to the person he socializes with. When dealing with honest people, you get to see the aura of trust, kindness, and truthfulness in them. These kind people are the ones who know how to deal with most people. Their dealing with others are done through a positive approach: a move that entails a happy feeling and a feeling of being too kind. 

Too bad, not everyone appreciates a very kind person.

Moments ago, I was slapped into reality by someone who told me that a person who I have been so kind to had some things to say about me. I couldn't stomach the fact that this person, who was a big factor in my happiness in Med school, would do this to me. The feeling of a euphoric summer was all attributed to this person, and everything that was to give was given to this person. I felt a sense of happiness because of this show of honesty and kindness to a person who I never expected to return anything in kind. Though there may be things that this person gave back, what pains me is that I never knew, not until just moments ago, that this person said unpleasant things about me. It hurts to learn that the person whom you first helped in post-grad life in order to make Med school life easier would be the last person in the world to talk back in a not-so-nice way. 

I couldn't believe the story at first, but who am I to judge who is to believe or not. The one who has said his/her reasons first is the 1st one to believe because a real person who cares for another will tell ahead the real deal that is happening. It came as a shock and surprise to me that even in a batch which I had no affiliation of, my name would be talked about in a negative manner. Even the ghosts of my High School past were haunting me again. I really couldn't take into myself that a blemished past would still keep up with me, 6 years after I graduated secondary school. I would've understood if my old best friend back in High School would say bad things about me to my classmates now in Med school, but to learn that my name is being trampled upon by lower batches is too much to stomach.

I cannot believe that one's kindness will also be his own weakness.

My summer last year wouldn't be happy if it weren't for this person. It's sad to note that this same person will make use of me and what's worse, talk back against me without my knowledge. I have been too blind to see it, because I was too kind to this person. I never saw it, not until a shining light appeared before me months back, and told me that there were rumors about me, spreading around the lower batch that "this and that" is "this and that." It came to my realization that I have been so stupid to help someone who, in the end, would slowly become transient and later would say things like I was some kind of villain. I wanted to shed tears as I was being revealed this grim reality, but I had to fight back the pain and accept it as it is.  I knew that social life is like one big showbiz career: the next thing you know, you're on the tabloid with negative comments from others you don't even know or who don't even know you that well.

I couldn't exactly see the reason why people would hit on very kind persons, no matter what their behavior or attitude is. Basta na lang may makitang ugali na di maganda sa isang tao na naging mabait sa kapwa,  yun at yun na lang ang pinagdidiskitahan ng karamihan para masira ang pagkatao ng taong yun. It's like how our Lord Jesus Christ endured when He was persecuted by His own people: His divine kindness led to his Crucifixion, which was planned by the same people he had helped build new and more spiritual lives. 

People who use and talk dirty against those who have been kind to them are real dipshi*ts. They cannot see the kindness of a person through their narrowed minds. They are devoured by the thoughts of Satan and are manipulated to destroy a person's kindness and generosity. Look at how evilness is rampant in our world today. This is the grim reality that kindness should always see. This is what makes the world go round.

On a positive note, it was good that all of these were unraveled to me in a time where all of us don't get to see each other very often. This will give me ample time to think about how my life went and how much time I made good use and wasted. It's ugly to see that such person will be the last person that will say bad things about you. Now I know why my old High School best friend hates me so bad, up until now she still ignores me, like I never ever existed.

Now that this information has been told to me, I'm starting to doubt my moves and my intentions towards other people who need my help. My apprehensions are starting to conquer me, for I am thinking deep and much more clearly now on my next move. I now realize that in the world of socialization, one has to accept the reality that one can never please everybody. Vigilance is much more important than being too gullible.

Good thing that my relationship with God is as tight as a Mighty Bond. I can always approach Him through prayers and tell Him my problems. I know God will help me, because if no one can even answer to my plight, only a Supreme Being can do so in ways unimaginable. I believe that befriending this person and later on knowing the reality about it is a challenge to me by the Great One. He wants me to think more deeply whenever I choose the people who I want to be with. I have to thank Him for giving me such a challenge to conquer.

Recently, I posted a blog about moving on, slowly but surely. Now, there is another reason for me to move on slowly but surely. It's a matter of months before I get to make myself accustomed to the reality of things. I just have to accept that this country is one big theater and I'm just a puppet trying to break off the strings of manipulation and deceit.

The bad thing about being too kind is that not all kindness is exchanged with kindness in return.